Their Days: Sam & Erin’s Story #6

Thursday

 Sam

Hi, Erin, it was manic out here on Wednesday – we wrapped everything up at about 9 pm, then our Belgian colleagues found a restaurant for about twenty of us to literally take over – obligatory fillet steaks and pommes frites, and beer, and more beer, and… well, let’s just say I’m glad it’s a short flight home today. Blushing reveals a lot about you – your sensitivity, your barely hidden vulnerability, your ability to show emotions, and apparently those that blush make great lovers! I may not be blushing, but I’m certainly smiling as I sign off for now.

Erin

How do you do this, Sam? You talk to me as if we have known each other for years not just a couple of weeks and with a sore head too. Some of the things you say I’d feel uncomfortable about with anyone else, but somehow it seems alright with you. So you don’t blush? Well, I’ll have to see what I can do about that when you get back.

 

Friday

 Sam

I send my gifts to you as words:

Flowers, their fragile beauty incomparable to yours

A classic fragrance, subtle, heaven scent as you

Lingerie, sensual, your body to adorn

Chocolate, to brush your lips, to taste sublime within

My thoughts, stroked from my heart to yours.

 Happy Birthday, Erin, I wish I could give you more.

Erin

Oh my goodness, Sam, you’ve brought tears to my eyes. I’m so flattered and overwhelmed by your lovely words. I wish I were with you right now to show you how very grateful I am. How could a girl want more than you have given me? Thank you so much, I’m almost speechless. Things like this don’t happen to me.

 

 Saturday

Sam

Hi, Erin, just a quick one. I stayed at a friend’s last night, but I’m now back home to a pile of junk mail through my letterbox, a misnomer if ever there was one. Made me think back to my youth, and a teenage girlfriend I’d met on holiday. Her letters I remember most – she was the first girl to show feelings for me through her written words. Decades on, another world, and written words connect us too – pull us close enough to touch, to feel something inside.  Have a great night out with your friends – short skirts, low tops and killer heels, or have I got you wrong?

Erin

Your messages take me to another world. Each one shows me a bit more of you. I love it, I really do. If I tried to do the same mine would be rubbish next to yours. If that’s your quick one, Sam, I’m going to be a very lucky girl – and yes, we will be girly girls tonight!

 

Sunday

 Sam

Erin, you stir so many things in me, we have to meet and soon. Let’s try to sort something out for next week.

Erin

I know that we need to meet, and I want to, it’s not just a case of having to, okay? We just need to get the timing right and I’m sorry, but next week is not right for me. I can’t help it, I just have too much on. I had no idea we’d get this close this quick when we started this.

Sam

The thing is, Erin, and I’d thought you would have realised this, I’m only in the UK next week then I’ll be away for a while and won’t be able to keep in touch. Well, at least not on a site like this. Look, I’ll be in London on Tuesday. Why don’t we meet up at lunchtime, just a quick coffee if you like? It would be so good to see you before I go.

Erin

Excuse me, what kind of message is that? Just what am I supposed to have realised? You’re the one who needs to look, Sam, I’ve told you I can’t meet up with you next week. It feels to me as though you are trying to tell me what to do and I don’t like it. I think you are being very unfair pushing me like this.

Their Days: Sam & Erin’s Story #5

Early May – Sam & Erin begin: #1 #2 #3 #4

Mid-May –  #5 – Sam in Brussels … 

 

Mid-May

 

Monday

Sam

Hi, Erin, how are you? Things are moving fast here – work-wise, I mean. There is plenty of talk as usual but, unusually for a gaggle of scientific experts, open-minded listening too. Decisions are actually going to be made, quite amazing for an EU run thing. Looks like I’m going to be much busier than I expected. Fortunately I’m definitely around next week, speaking of which I’m excited about meeting up with you. What dates do you have in mind? As for your birthday, what are you and your girlfriends getting up to at the weekend, or should a gentleman not ask?

Erin

Hello, Sam, thank you so much for finding the time to message me. I wasn’t sure you would be able to – I’m so chuffed. The thing is, I now feel guilty. I’m trying but haven’t come up with any dates for us to meet next week. I hope you understand I’m doing my best, so please don’t have a go at me.

 

Tuesday

Sam

Erin, there was just too much going on out here yesterday for me to reply. I wanted to as I couldn’t understand why you thought I’d have a go at you. If you say you are trying and doing your best, why would I not believe you? Sure I’ll be disappointed if it turns out I can’t see you next week, but why on earth would you think I’d turn on you?

Erin

Sorry, it’s just what I’m used to from men. Well, most men, when things don’t go their way. I don’t want to disappoint you, Sam, I really don’t, but I’ve got a lot on at the moment at home and at work and I’m not able to even pencil in a date just now. I know I’m going out with the girls on Saturday, but that’s been booked up for weeks, and no – a gentleman shouldn’t ask. Hmm, a ‘scientist and a gentleman’ – I wonder, could that play out like ‘An Officer and a Gentleman’, with you whisking me away in your white coat?

Sam

Hey, you don’t have to justify yourself to me.  Let’s say no more about it and just see where we are when I get back, okay? Your mind’s like quicksilver on here, and your ‘hmm’s keep taking me by surprise, in a good way. Whisk you away? Now there’s a thought. I’ll be popping in to London next week – I’ll bring a lab-coat with me.

Erin

Sam, I think I’d actually die if you turned up and did the ‘Richard Gere’ thing with me. I’ve got this feeling though that you are the kind of man who would. I’m blushing. How are you doing this to me? We haven’t even met yet.

Their Days: Sam & Erin’s Story #4

Early May  (#1 #2 #3  & #4) – Sam & Erin tentatively reaching out – Mid-May to come,  yet closer, though Sam has gone away?

Saturday

 Sam

Surely I’m not the first man to want to get to know you? Has there not been a man you felt you really wanted, who you opened up to, who made a difference to you? I’m nothing special, just an ordinary man. There isn’t anything too mysterious about me – I just can’t say too much about what I do on here. I liked your mischievous ‘hmm’, and you know full well what’s playing on my mind. I wonder how you imagine a scientist to be. Did you know our senses are highly tuned? We have a touch, a feel for things so sensitive that with experience we can almost feel the earth move. Some go far and wide to perfect this skill. Maybe one day all I’ll need is to be with you?

Erin

You’re winding me up now, aren’t you? I’ve actually met the odd scientist through my work, odd being the operative word in my experience. I could have stood stark naked in front of one in particular and I’m sure he wouldn’t have noticed. I’m into being experimental and not had any complaints about my touch. And yes, Sam, you are the first man I’ve spoken to seriously on here. I’m so glad you found me, darling man.

 

Sunday

Sam

Where to start?  I’m really enjoying this – it’s such bad timing that I have to go away. You know, it’s been a long time since I’ve been called darling or anything like that. It’s kind of nice. I think I’d best shut up before I say something stupid. Moving on to your experimental ways, you got me thinking how best to assess your skills – your flexibility, your responsiveness to diverse stimuli? Perhaps you could find a date that suits for when I come back? I fly out this afternoon and all being well I’ll be back on your birthday. Have to go now. Take care, Erin, I’ll miss you.

Erin

I’ll do my best to find a date for us. You take care too, and if you can please try and keep in touch.  I’ll miss you too, Sam.

 

Their Days: Sam & Erin’s Story #3

Notes for my editor set the scenes – #1 and #2,  early May, Sam & Erin begin – now #3 of their first week… 

Friday

Sam

Erin, if I was clever I wouldn’t do some of the things I do. With me it’s more my instincts and experience that count. I’m very hands on, and need to be where things happen. I think you are being kind but thank you all the same. A colleague took that photo a few months ago. She says it’s the real me, whatever that means! You know, I sense it’s you who is the clever one. I’ve worked with charities in the field and totally relied on the expertise of their admin folk to get someone as disorganised as me where I need to be… and back! So, ‘birthday girl’ next weekend, mid-twenties I’m thinking?

Erin

Sam, you’re over-estimating me. No one ever calls me clever – I think it’s something to do with my long blonde hair and boobs. Sometimes people look at me as if I’m just a dumb slut. Maybe they’re right – I’m on here, aren’t I? And for sure, the thought of you being very hands on is playing on my mind! The thing is, I’d like to be seen as normal too if that makes sense. You make me feel good about myself and I can’t remember the last time a man did that. I’ll be twenty-nine next Friday, so about as young as you feel!

Sam

Erin, there is no way you are dumb. The way you write shows me that there is so much more to you than your looks and sexuality. Yes, we’ve met on a site like this.  So what? You have your needs and I have mine, but they don’t define us. I’ll not presume to say what yours might be or mine, or that we’ll ever share them…but yes, the things that play on your mind play on my mind too.

Erin

Sam, the things you say to me, it’s almost as if you know me. For the first time I feel at ease with a man.  I feel I can really talk to you and you’ll not judge me. I like your understated manner. You’re a bit mysterious, aren’t you? I probably shouldn’t ask but, if you can, I’d like to know more about what you do… and hmm, what’s playing on your mind then?

Their Days: Sam & Erin’s Story #2

An early May weekend, a Sunday, Sam messaged Erin, their first words posted (#1) – now continued on …

Tuesday

Sam

For us to have begun to share our thoughts and feelings means a lot to me. I can’t explain why we feel like this, can you? I’m just glad we do. Perhaps it is fate, its touch, a chance for us to… well, let’s see?

Erin

I have a good feeling about us too but, lovely as this is, let’s not go and get all carried away too soon. Can we just enjoy this moment and take things a little more slowly please?

 

Wednesday

Sam

Erin, you are something more than beautiful to me. You permeate my mind, you occupy my dreams. There is no speed control, no neutral – it’s just the way it is.  I sense I could tell you everything of me and you tell me almost nothing in return, yet you’d draw me in, day-by-day, ever closer to you. Please tell me, however did I get to feel like this? I don’t know a thing about you.

Erin

Sam, I’ve never known a man who could express his feelings as you do – this really is a first for me. I certainly got more than I bargained for when I replied to you! Oh, and by the way, I don’t see how you can sense I’ll not tell you anything about me – you haven’t asked me anything.  What’s a girl to do?

 

Thursday

Sam

Hello, Erin, I guess I’ve been holding back a bit. I didn’t want to seem too pushy. Yes, I’d like to get to know you, who you are, what you do, what makes you tick, if that’s okay with you? As for me, Sam is my given name. I’ve just turned fifty and I’m single, but I haven’t always been. I feel like a thirty-year-old in my head but, as for the rest of me, I try to keep in shape with a run, a swim and yoga a few days a week. I’m a scientist, and work where and when I’m needed, usually abroad. I’ll be in Brussels next week for a few days, but I should be back by the weekend.

Erin

Of course you can get to know me. I like that you want to so it’s very okay. You now intrigue me even more. You look much younger and I can see you’re in good shape. Your job sounds important – it must be exciting jetting off to work. I’m not as clever as you obviously are – I do admin for a charity and the most I get to travel is in to London every day.  I’m free and single and will be out with the girls next weekend to celebrate my birthday!

Their Days: Sam & Erin’s Story #1

This is the first post of the revised and edited version of ‘Believing Sight Unseen: Their Days’ – written in message scenes, replacing previous posts in narrative/message format.

Early May

 

Sunday

Sam:

Sites like this are not my thing, yet somehow your photo appeared to me. By chance, by fate, I wouldn’t know. All I know is that as I go about my daily life my thoughts keep coming back to you. What can I say, other than you’ve captivated me – I just had to sign up, just had to say hello. I’m Sam and spellbound by your smile.

Erin:

Oh my goodness, do you really mean that? I’m Erin, by the way.

Sam:

Hello, Erin, l can’t quite believe you got in touch. I’ve not done anything like this before so I’ll just be me and write the way I feel. Is that alright with you?

Erin:

I like the way you write – it’s refreshing to chat to a guy who seems interested in me. Most men on here are only interested in one thing!

Sam:

There must be plenty of men who’ve been awed by your looks, your sensuality, your charms. I can’t imagine you ever having to try too hard, or being alone. You being here at all I just can’t think why. You’ll have your reasons, and I’ll not pry.

Erin:

I find that a lot of guys who would like to be with me are far too immature. I’ve always been attracted to the more intelligent male and I like older guys too as I feel I’m treated much better by them, though there are always exceptions to the rules. What about you?

Sam:

For me intelligence and looks only go so far, it’s who and how you are that really matters. You have something, you intrigue me, and if you don’t mind me saying, it sounds as if you’ve been let down a time or two? Men say they cannot help but be what they are, though some do try to be as women want, but I’ll not deny it isn’t always easy! Sorry, I’m probably talking too much?

Erin:

No, not at all. I don’t think you talk too much. I like reading what you have to say. It’s all so real and insightful, I feel as if I’m connecting with you and I’m enjoying it.

 

Monday

Sam:

I wonder how many lives your smile will light up today, how many pulses you will raise.  How many will stumble for words on speaking to you, asking how you are, how your evening was, wishing they had been with you. I’m smiling now, thinking all these things too.

Erin:

You have made me smile that’s for sure – I wish I could be that infectious!

Sam:

You’ll think this a strange thing for me to say, but I feel your presence. Where my thoughts go you go too – us walking bare foot in the grass, our feet anointed by the sea as we stroll along a beach, hands held beneath a sky of blue… I know, I know, too much, too soon… to think of you like this.

Erin:

You know how to give me butterflies, don’t you? I enjoy your thoughts – I have the same sorts of things running through my mind too, though I don’t have the words to capture them as you do.

EDC Writing – notes for my editor #1

Believing Sight Unseen

His and her stories written in message format

Have enough raw text for at least two distinct books using different pairs of characters – it’s just a matter of me sorting it!

 

Book One: Their Days – Sam & Erin’s Story

A May to September relationship – in terms of age gap and timeline.

Two characters Erin, age about 30; Sam, age about 50.

Interaction – predominately internet messaging – potential for email, phone text and ultimately dialogue.

Messages clearly defined as Sam or Erin – delineated by day starting on a Sunday in early May (contemporary, most of the raw messages were written in 2012 – 2014).

No formal chapters – time lined – Early May – Mid May – Late May and so on.

Expect to be novella length (~25,000 words of which ~ 11,000 edited to date)

Intention to be real and relatable – believable yet not predictable – to have readers feel for both Sam and Erin and want them to be together (despite or because of their flaws and misunderstandings).

An of today ‘will they – wont they’ story aiming to self-publish in June (July at the latest!)

Blogging ongoing edited story in ‘real time’ up until published – from today.

[Hi Esther – I need to send you this! Catch up tomorrow – Eric]