His & Hers: Raw Lines #12 – subtle breeze…

His:

On days like this, sun kissed, a subtle breeze, leaves appearing in awakening trees, inner feelings can break free. Imagine a day like this, the day we meet, how it could be, for you and me. You walk towards me, and I to you, you give a wave and I do too. We now so close our smiles break through, both blush a little as our eyes meet too. Our fingers brush, your hand finds its way to mine. We stroll along, birds sing, nature in all its glory bows to you, your beauty, I bow too.

Hers:

Subtle breeze and leaves – you are such a romantic. Those words of yours paint a thousand images in my mind you know! Blushing a little got me smiling and our eyes meeting. What would we be wearing? I’d like to imagine the whole picture if you don’t think it an odd question?

His:

A quote from Hans Christian Andersen –  ‘just living is not enough, one must have sunshine, freedom and a little flower’ – just seems to catch the mood, the way I feel, about my life and you. We share the sunshine, my freedom my choice to be with you, the perfect flower, who gives meaning to my life. What we’ll wear, always a smile, whatever else depends on how we are, we feel, how much we want to give. I see you in my mind, always stunning in a dress, light and floaty in the daytime you hair down, barefoot, we always seem to be in the open, walking, laying on the grass. In the evening, a dress too, figure hugging, we’re dancing, close, all eyes on you.

Hers:

Oh my goodness, that quote and the way you described it relating to you and me actually brought a tear to my eye. I do hope I’m not a disappointment to you when we meet. You put me on such a high pedestal that I’m afraid I’ll not stand up to your expectations of me.

His:

I’ll stand up for you, as you come into sight, when you enter a room, when you need a hug, by day by night. A romantic, yes, yet a realist too.  I know of you only from your words, and those that fall between the lines. We all have flaws, my eyes are open and I adore you for who you are.

Hers:

You really are an amazing man aren’t you? I can’t believe how lucky I am. Being on here I just thought would be a bit of fun. I never ever expected to find someone like you and to feel like this. I love everything about you and I feel that can only grow more as time goes on.

His & Hers – raw lines extracted at random from ‘Believing Sight Unseen’  a file of what was a quarter of a million words – culled to about a hundred and fifty thousand – now turning into stories…

His & Hers: Raw Lines #11 – not trying to tie you down…

His:

You have a good evening, forget about me, enjoy yourself with friends, look absolutely gorgeous, stun everyone who sees you. I’ll wish I could be with you, but it’s not me you want to be with. So go do what makes you happy and turns you on. You only have one life so live it, as you always do. Take care, have fun.

Hers:

Why does that sound like you are saying goodbye to me? Have I done something wrong because that message has left me thinking, so please do let me know.

His:

I felt I’ve been boring you, getting too heavy, burdening you with things I shouldn’t so thought I’d be a lot more positive and lighten up. I just gave myself a slap and a bit of a kick up the arse to accept you’re an incredible young woman and I’m damn lucky to have you in my life at all. I feel alive and not just living because of you. I want to share whatever we can of our lives together, I want us to be real. But saying that I want you to know I’m not trying to tie you down or inhibit you or the way you want to live. I just want you the way you are.

Hers:

I know you’re not trying to tie me down, just don’t scare me like that again! I really thought you were saying you didn’t want me anymore. I felt like crying. I’m so glad it’s not the case.

His & Hers – raw lines extracted at random from ‘Believing Sight Unseen’  a file of what was a quarter of a million words – culled to about a hundred and fifty thousand – now turning into stories…

 

His & Hers: Raw Lines #10 – first thing on a Sunday morning…

His:

I’m feeling let down to be honest. I thought you understood we need to talk. I’m tired of sitting on my arse waiting for you to start this. But hey, don’t rush to reply, do whatever you have planned for today, I really wouldn’t want to spoil anything you enjoy.

Hers:

I do talk to you! I’ve never been so open with anyone. You are spoiling what I enjoy, you, the way you where, what’s got into you?

His:

Come on, it’s obvious you avoid talking about anything to do with us. Do you really think I’m that dumb? You like stringing me along, you’re an expert at it, you’ve been doing it since day one, the very first day we started this. As you said I’m pathetic, I agree, I must be for taking this from you for so long. So let’s keep it simple, you do something for once.

Hers:

And when did I say that you’re pathetic? Why would I speak to you like that? You’re not dumb and there is no need for you to say that. Forcing me to do something isn’t going to make me do so much quicker, don’t you get that? You seem to be so moody lately. You need to calm down.

His:

Well that seems to say it all, you don’t even know what you said two days ago. This is all part of the same thing, the same old problem, you not being able to move on. I’m not forcing you to do anything anyone who really cares would do. I’m calm, why would you think I’m not, all I’m doing is telling you what I see. And please spare me your innocence, just do something for us. I’m tired of being the only one trying to make us work.

Hers:

It’s first thing on a Sunday morning and yet again it’s all me, me, me with you, I’m fed up of your do this, do that moods and messages. This is the last thing I need, stop being so damn pushy, I’ve had enough, okay!

His & Hers: Raw Lines #9 – Maybe all we need are yours?

His:

You know something, you and I are much closer than you believe, we’re not so different it seems to me. You come over as liking your own company, so do I, you like space and freedom to be yourself, as do I, you have commitments and responsibilities that you take seriously, I too very much so, you feel most alive, close to nature, exposed to the sky, the stars, smiling as your imagination soars, as you say to feel warm rain upon your skin, and now and then, like me, so need to feel the tingle of hands upon your body, soft lips exploring you, to feel the beating heart of someone close, their breath their sighs, to sensually let go.

Hers:

It’s crazy how you know me so well – I mean it’s like you are the other half of me. I’ve never had anyone in my life understand me so much, I’m a little spooked now.

His:

It’s not really crazy. There’ve been times when you’ve said what I already know, that we are soul-mates, as if we’re each other’s safe harbour in the ever changing sea of life. As you used to often say, we are connected, I’ve always believed this too, I your anchor, you my soaring angel, free to fly, to be you, not tied down, yet always knowing I’ll not let you go, that I’ll always be there for you. You are the other half of me too. Just felt I had to tell you this, there is nothing spooky, I just take in everything you’ve ever written me, I’ve let you in and feel you inside of me, I’ve grown to know you, it’s quite wonderful.

Hers:

Yes, I do think we’re connected, there’s no question about that at all. When you describe it like that it doesn’t sound spooky, just me not using the right words, maybe all we need are yours.

His & Hers: Raw Lines #8 – Not hearing…

His:

You’re not hearing what I say, you don’t understand I’m way ahead of you, my feelings are the deepest, I’m uncomfortable being without you, uncomfortable with us just being here. There’s more to us than just what you want, what I want matters too. There has to be a way ahead for us. What are we actually waiting for?

Hers:

Please don’t make demands of me. You know my feelings about that. I’m hearing you loud and clear. Maybe you need to keep a firmer grip on your feelings.

His:

I’m not holding back my feelings, how can I they are real. If you can keep a grip on yours then perhaps they’re not so real. I’ve said all I have to say, it’s up to you now.

Hers:

Please can you try and understand what I’m asking for right now is a little reassurance. Don’t attack me when what I need most is for you to show me that you care.

His & Hers – raw lines extracted at random from ‘Believing Sight Unseen’  a file of a man and woman’s words.

His & Hers: Raw Lines #7 – Part of it…

Part of it…

His:

Yet another weekend, you’ll look good, so desirable on a night or two out with friends, maybe a date, maybe someone regular. I’m not naive, you’re a sensual woman – you have your needs and more ways than most to sate them. I just don’t get, given all you’ve said you feel, why not with me? I’m struggling to comprehend what we are all about, with not really knowing what you want from me? Why are you doing this, why can’t you open up and let me in, let me see who you really are?

Hers:

I’m going out but there won’t be any dates with men or women, just me having fun with my friends. Yes, I’m highly sexed and can get a quickie any time I like but I don’t want that any more – can’t you see that. You’re going on like I’m sleeping with everyone apart from you!

His:

I’m not going on as though you are sleeping around, if I thought that I wouldn’t be here. I’m just saying that we are not exclusive to each other, how could we be, we’ve never met. You are obviously free to live your life as you like – I’d just like to know when I’ll be a part of it?

Hers:

You are a part of it and that’s what I’ m saying – there is no one else. I’m enjoying getting to know you, I’ve no hidden agenda, I just want this to continue as well as it is and see how it goes, that’s it, it’s for all the right reasons you know.

His:

If only I knew what to say, had words left to give what you seem to need – more and more of them from me? I want to share my thoughts with you but nothing more will come. I’ve revealed more to you than anyone, you know the man I am. Do you really need more of this or the real possibility of us?

Hers:

I don’t need the possibility of us, I need the real us. I always have and always will. Have I ever given you reason to doubt this? I’ve loved getting to know you and still do. I thought you knew our feelings were mutual?

His & Hers – raw lines extracted at random from ‘Believing Sight Unseen’  a file of a man and woman’s words written as they came, from where, your guess as good as mine.

His & Hers: Raw Lines #6 – No like all men…

No like all men…

His:

I look but cannot see, I listen but cannot hear, I feel but sense nothing in return, my demons tell me you’re not real, how else can I explain your lack of sensitivity, your indifference, your avoidance of me. There is no pressure, no expectation from me save that you live up to who you say you are. We both know I’ve been taken for a fool, stupidly falling for a sham. At least I know I’ve been honest throughout which it seems you’ve not. You’ve taught me a lesson – I’ll not give my heart again to anyone unseen.

Hers:

I find it really insulting that you’re basically saying I’m a fake. Who do you think you are to turn it like this because you don’t get your own way? I thought for once I’d met someone who was fucking nice, but no like all men, you tantrum when I don’t do as you say. I’m so gutted that you’ve done this to me. You’ve made me feel worthless. I hope it was worth it.

His & Hers – raw lines extracted at random from ‘Believing Sight Unseen’  a file of a man and woman’s words written as they came, from where, your guess as good as mine.

His & Hers: Raw Lines #5 – Not forgotten…

Not forgotten…

His:

Time has cleared my mind, allowed my heart to be heard, and shown what’s always been in my soul, a part of you within me, the part that makes me smile, the part that gives me hope, the part that shows me that need is so much more than want. I too often overwhelmed you, too often suffocated you, too often wanted too much too soon, and I ashamed to say hurt you with words that were wrong, words that will not come from me again. Time is all you ever asked of me, time is what I give you, and hope to share as us.

Hers:

You’ve really hurt me, and I admit it’s going to be hard to rebuild my trust in you. I’m always going to be worrying that you are going to turn on me again, but I do want to try.

His:

It’s such a relief that you want to try again. I really don’t want to lose you, we have come too far to give up on each other now. I’ve exorcised my demons, I know the pain I’ve caused, the crass mistakes I’ve made. If you’ll accept it, I unreservedly and truly offer my apology.

Hers:

I don’t know what to think at the moment, I need time to think if this is what I want. If you could act like that on here then it makes me wonder what on earth you would be like if I were to ever agree to meeting you, and right now, the chance of that is very slim.

His:

I feel very shaken and shocked to see that I have done so much damage to us. It hurts beyond belief. I hope and pray you realise that we do have something very special. I’m trembling with the enormity of having to face up to up to the possibility of losing you. I can hardly breath. I feel completely empty. I feel as though my every dream could end and all because of my stupidity.

Hers:

Look we all do stupid things, but there are consequences and I think you realise that now. Of course things aren’t peachy, but I do want to try and smooth things over. I think we both hurt, but we have to try and move on – but no, mistakes not forgotten, we can’t undo the past.

His & Hers: Raw Lines #4 – Another chance…

His:

Another chance? I must be completely mad, but I’ll give you the chance to stop dithering and arrange for us to meet next week, real dates, not vague times in the future. I’ll give you the chance to stop being so enigmatic, to stop messing with my emotions. I’ll give you the chance to show me you really want to give us a chance. No more endless messaging and waiting – okay!

Hers:

That message was very intense indeed. I don’t entirely understand why you are so angry at me and why you have turned to this to get what you want. I thought we understood each other. Maybe this isn’t a good idea after all.

His:

You asked me to give you another chance and I have. Yes I am annoyed that you always evade any form of commitment to meet. I’m still here though – God knows why? Perhaps you are right and we should end this if you think I am using some sort of ploy to get what I want. I thought it was what we wanted! If you want us to try and go forward then do something or be honest enough to say you want to stop. You simply cannot carry on abusing my feelings like this.

Hers:

I wouldn’t say that accusing me of abusing your emotions and dithering and messing you about is exactly another chance. I have told you I cannot give you a date at the moment, not giving you a date then makes you say well be honest and say I want to stop, I haven’t been dishonest, I don’t want to stop but can’t give you a date yet, and trying to pile pressure on me by using me as an excuse to blame isn’t fair.

His & Hers – raw lines extracted at random from ‘Believing Sight Unseen’  a file of what was a quarter of a million words – now culled to about a hundred and fifty thousand – so many repetitions when a man and woman talk.